The hands have it

For some reading the following , this may seem extremely left field and almost incomprehensible, for others you may be able to identify with the experience, nevertheless , my words are true & my description is as close to what happened as possible

On the Monday of June 2nd 09, I had my 1st real trance experience at circle, one that I did not expect as we sat down in our pairs (chosen via raffle tickets)! I thought I was just going to have my usual Monday experience ; fairly intense but nothing out of the ordinary. Yet 20 minutes into my turn to trance heal and I felt the most unbelievable and strangely connected syncing with the person I was healing I had ever felt,I don't think I will ever forget the experience. I still cant quite believe it and I keep on going over the experience in my mind reliving it, as it was so powerful . It wasn't unpleasant , but it wasn't pleasant either ; my whole body felt as if it was being held in this strange , well the only word I can find is - Trance!!

The only clue in hindsight that things would be different was that at the hospice that morning when treating patients was that my whole body shook and my hands vibrated so much , I had to concentrate on not making it a discomforting experience for them. But both of them came round in a stooper as if they had been in an intense dream sleep. I hadnt yet experienced this whilst healing.

Im found 10 days later at my following Monday circle I could, (well for now, as you never know when your abilities will ebb and flow), go into trance or meditation at the drop of a hat.

All I keep seeing is how my hands on that Monday were stuck to my recipients back as if glued on or magnetised to them, almost as if they were sinking in to that person. I know when spirit are near as I normally feel my body leaning to the side or as if Im in a force field I cant move from, but this time my whole body was moved and slumped forward and it was damn hard to control. I totally took on the shape and form of the grandmother of the recipient and started to feel an intense amount of emotion for them both. The feeling of compassion was so strong it took over my whole body , like nothing I have ever experienced. As my circle leaders voice came into frequency and I heard his words "please step back from the medium" , I came whooshing out with such force that it brought on hyperventilation and a rush of emotion that left me sobbing. It was an extreme shock to my system , as I was being pulled from one level of consciousness to another. Hyperventilation is something Ive had to deal with in the recent past so thankfully , due to my, (lets call it training in how to deal with acute panic attacks), I think I was just about able to stave it off. Our teacher has discussed on several occasions that coming out too quickly can cause this effect , but until your actually in that deep , you don't quite realise how hard it is too harness the information you've been told to prevent it. I know for sure I will know for next time!

I am surprised Im able to write about it , as I feel part of my consciousness was almost of another plane for that half hour of my life, but Ive been teaching myself how to recall dreams, as it was something very much recommended for my work. I' have been wondering if this is why I was told to do so, so that I can easily connect with what I see and feel when on another level.

During the experience I felt many things ; Spirit had stepped in to my aura so closely that I felt my whole body being hugged and held , my head kept on being pulled back and my body was moved side to to side. It was hard to keep still. I still cant quite believe what I felt , as in all honesty , even at my circle watching others do this , Ive thought that may be Im being hoaxed , but yet I know that what Im writing is true. It felt extremely real and in no way forced, it was in fact a very special experience. One I don't think I will forget.

I hope to be able to connect in this way again, as it greatly benefits my work and my connection with the spirit who is trying to convey its message to me for my sitters. Just next time I must remember to ground a bit more on the exit!!

do wish lists make things happen?

Stephanie at Back in skinny jeans posted a great piece on aspirations and what ours were. I answered in comments and ended up gushing my life out for a change , so I thought I would paste it in here as a reminder for me! I periodically make lists of intentions and dreams , some of them over the years have transpired. I'm not sure yet if its law of attraction or just the fact that once you've made a statement of intent , your wheels start turning that way. Or is it that once its out of your head and on paper , it becomes a more solid and conscious thing?

Anywhooo heres what I said:

Apart from bringing up 2 happy, confident and balanced girls this is my
list :

1st Im waiting to do my Reiki 2 level in June , so I can get public
liability insurance and start practising as a healer legally in the UK,
alongside that is medium ship and psychic work.

Get more knowledge on blogging and the techy side to improve my blog
sites , so that I can get better exposure. Who knows were my new found writing
ability, whilst a bit ropey in places, will take me hey.

Like you I LOVE photography. I'm waiting to get my digital SLR in a few
weeks , so I can improve my photography work. The reaction time is just toooo
slow on my normal digital. I still have my original classic SLR from about 15yrs
ago, but its my digital I use more. Photography is something that has been with
me all through my life, Im also semi self taught , but made sure I always did as
an aside at college and Uni for extra oomph to my final qualifications. Its such
a pleasure though. You do stunning photography work and those links to Matt and
Beatrice are just wonderful.

My word , Ive not done this for a while , excuse it all coming out
here, I'm going to have to transfer this to my blog I think!

The last few are to get my art going again as I have a half started
canvas, sitting in my teeeeny studio,from over 2yrs ago when I was pregnant with
girl 2.

and lastly make a real push on cooking more and eating more raw.

What an achievement for you in having no food issues, that's quite
inspiring, Ive just eaten a norty bag of crisps I shouldn't have! (oofff to
Noshtopia for some snack ideas sans chips/ crisps!).

Seems a bit disjointed like this in here, but I like to preserve things as they are! A look at the original post will put it all in context!

In keeping with my sentiment , here's a look at my WIP started 2yrs ago!!!!! Now I need to find a way to get the urge to get paint on my fingers again.

Its finding the time between blogging and painting when I only have the evenings. How does everyone do it!?

Want to share your wish lists or goals, you never know , it may kick start them?

I might do something with this , now Ill be seeing it every day on here!