Its my birthday and ill cry if I want to !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't really have a birthday day today as such , although I had a quick meet up lunch with my mum on her work lunch break with my two girls and a visit to the park with li'l cupcakes schoolfriend. We have planned at the weekend , a lovely meal in a special restaurant on Saturday . You will hear more of which on Nosh of Love next week Im sure and a shopping trip into central London on Sunday to sort my Birthday pressie out from he the mans.

Ive felt a bit flat as I'm now much nearer to 40 than 30 today!

I know its only a number , and I know spiritually I shouldnt worry about age and time lines , but it just feels very weird. Its like were did all that time go, Im shocked I think !!!

Ive felt very much stuck the last few weeks and Ive been fixating on the wrong things : , Internet use, staying up late, not eating well , worrying about social life, other people and their reactions and things outside of me. I was told last night two things : 1) that all this distraction needs to stop 2) the opportunities I search for may not be the ones that come to be the right ones.

To clear all the debris away I need to have a good ole cry - healing tears of course - and get it out and get moving forward, I have work to do you see now. I really really have to start in earnest with my Reiki path . So I know I need to focus on the positives and last nights circle was a wonderful recap of the energy I can work with and the power I have in myself.

Image care of Erika on My Space , found on Dr.Romel Axibal at My Space

It was a lovely healing evening and one that was very very much needed. It really helped me get back in touch with my healing abilities and was nice to slow down and relax a bit. We spent the first half of the evening doing energy exercises : feeling our own energy by holding our hands out in front as if holding a football and feeling were you sense resistance. Shutting down and then re opening to universal energy and feeling the difference is mind blowing , even our resident sceptic to healing was blown away! As someone nicely put it last night, "Its the difference between holding a tennis ball and then holding a beach ball" !! We also did the same in pairs before and after breathing in Universal light and had to give the sitter one message about themselves . Its a wonderful way of really feeling the difference from every day being to the expanded energy we work with in medium ship and healing. We then grouped into Reiki levels and non Reiki levels and partnered up to practise and connect for a psychic or clairvoyant message for the recipient.

I felt it was actually easier to connect once we'd done the energy work and I need to remember the practise of it when working. It was also great to receive feedback on my healing as I generally only practise on my girls. I have done my father for 10minutes post Reiki II and he found it immensely soothing and my mother in law before my Reiki II, (which really is- at level I- as our teacher says an "inspired Spiritual healing") , but to get outside validation is great for this work. The sitter said she never normally relaxes , but that with my short session she very much felt deeply calmed. To know that I'm channelling something and this is having a strong effect is a great feeling. To know its helping someone feel good is the best feeling I could ever get. The healing I received from her in return was wonderful and the end to the evening at my lovely friends home - were she fed me after (spiritually and physically), gosh you get soooo hungry after circle- I think has helped me re evaluate some of the odd stuck place I got my head at recently.

Ive noticed the time and seen that its just after 11:30 pm. Normally I would keep going until way past midnight , but so I can get some much needed down time, I will keep this post briefer than normal and head off to get into sleep mode. If I set a small intention now , it may help discipline me through the days.

I thank the universe and the friends for the gift of their time and the experience of the evening.

Night all x

little seance synergies

I spent the other night whilst writing my last post looking for a perfect image to capture what sitting circle meant. Whilst looking on Google images for "development circle" I found many images like this :

this

and finally I settled on this

(although my very fussy and particular mind still wasn't quite pleased!). I have another image which conveys it all perfectly and can be found on here at the very top , but I didn't dare use the image , for copyright reasons.The site has an energy I'm not really sure I like either , but that's a whole other post hey!

The seance images didn't really capture what we do every week, and to be honest , we don't really sit at a table holding hands for 2hrs in the dark, but the images nonetheless piqued my interest . I'm now further intrigued to find out more about famous and notorious (yes some were found to be fraudsters)mediums from way way back. A famous one being Florrie cook.

To me the phrase and images of a seance felt quite old fashioned if not quite a typical and stereotyped idea of what goes on in these types of circles. Our circle is different every week and entails all aspects of spiritual endeavours ; healing , Reiki , psychic , medium ship, pyramid trance , meditation, rostrum practise ,oracle & tarot cards, divination , Ouija board , automatic writing , inspirational talking and so much more.

And yes we do tend to sit in a circle , but mainly as its quite a nice way to work. The only time we hold hands is to say a little prayer to other side to start us off in the right way. A sign of respect I suppose to what we are doing and an intention to do it with love and care, (not necessarily always with all the fluff though)!!!!!!

but last night at circle only a handful of people turned up and I think "inspirationally" our teacher decided we could have some fun with a traditional seance. It struck me so full of synchronicity , especially after my link to the T-Mobile advert and that Id been doing a little research on what went on in old seances of the early 1900 this week. If they are at the forefront of popular culture right now, then last nights activity was a case of the teacher tapping into the universal mind me feels, it struck him as quite a coincidence anyhow. They really are not that much different now I suppose in how we conducted the event. I thought that may be it wasn't the thing to do anymore as Ive not heard of groups doing them, but hey anything goes huh in this different-to-the- norm- life Ive been working in lately.

So all the lights were turned down , a candle lit on a small table in the centre and hands were held. It was quite a good evening and the energy felt really strong and consistent. We each took it in turns to see if we could come through with someone clairvoyantly.

We had opened the evening doing an energy exercise involving deep breathing and drawing in light from above and below to start with , which taught us a really strong way to open up to the other-side and I think that helped enormously with our connections that evening, I for one felt like Id taken something heavy and not necessarily prescribed, which cant be to bad for just breathing and seeing light !!!! What came through I got validation for from one of those sitting , which was great for both of us . We even started seeing what others were when they were reading another person , even down to what a sitters grandparent had in their kitchen , which is always a great validation for all in the group and makes it quite exciting , who needs drugs hey?!

It just goes to show one has to approach all of this with a sense of fun , openness and experimentation in mind, (funny teacher said that last night , as Jeff Phillips also said the same on Sunday, odd little themes are showing up to me lately). It makes for a much better experience and I feel for one that it has enhanced my life tenfold. Others might think it crazy stuff, unfathomable , (even I do sometimes) , but it doesn't matter , I enjoy it , it gives my life great meaning and purpose that we continue after. I cant explain it totally ,I just feel Im meant to be doing all of this.